Round 4 - I've Got Dreams I Don't Want To Remember

Some days I just wish I never got out of bed.

Some days I wish I never turned on my brain.

Some days I wish I didn't get so scared.

I'm afraid. I'm afraid I'll be like this forever.

Today was not good. My good friend died and then undied. My best male friend had a lung collapse. I thought he was going to leave me too. My shrink charges by the tear and so instead I just wimper and shake. It feels terrible, but at least I don't get soaked.

It's all about perspective, I suppose. You say I did it on purpose, I say I was confused. It doesn't really matter who's right. It's not my fault you're planning on ignoring for the rest of our lives. In fact, right now, today, I don't even care. Go on, it's fine.
I don't have a problem leaving people behind. I've done it my whole life.

What makes you think you're any different? I can treat you just like all the rest.

In fact, I will.

I had a horrific dream last night.
They say you're supposed to wake up when you die.
But last night I didn't...and I got to hear what people thought. And it broke my dreaming heart.

I thought people cared; but I realized I'm the only one that gets sad.

I thought of him today.

The dream I'd like to forget.

He doused me in gasoline and laughed while his best friend lit the match.

I guess people never change.

I could really use that angel of mercy right about now. But even he isn't paying attention to this anymore.

And I can't say I blame him.